♥ ♥ 5 taon lepas , aq b'jumpa seowg hamba Allah neyh yg benar2 m'watkn aq jatoh cinta padanya....Dye m'gajar & m'ngenal aq erti cinta yg sebenar....Pejam celik><pejam celik , x sangke hubungan kteeowg begitu lama cmpai awal taon neyh....Hbungan kteowg terputus , mgkin ade cbb t'tentu dye putuskn hbgn kteowng(hnye dye ngn aq yg twu sbbnye)....Aq ta pnh na slhkn dri dyew....Mmg pahit+perit aq lalui seowg dri....''Hanya Allah yg Tahu Perasaan Aq Saat Tu''....Air mata m'basahi Pp m'galir x t'henti tnpa aq sedari , siang malam hnya air mata menemani aq saat e2....Aq x twu na luahkn pd ccpe ketika 2 , hnya Allah tmptku m'ngadu & b'doa agar d'beri p'2juk pdeku agar aq kuat menempuh dugaan neyh....Aq mula dktkn dri ngn Allah , Alhmdllh cmpai skunk aq slalu mngadu dgn Allah....Dlu aq slalu lalai,tp skunk ta lgyh....Aq darh berubah , ta mcm dlu.... Syukur Alhamdulilah......
♥ ♥ M'ngambil mse gark untk lalui semua neyh , tiap ary aq ta ptus bg msg at dye , mcm2 aq kte n luhakn pewasaan aq saat e2....Tp dye ta lyn aq n satu pown dye ta bls msg aq....Mgkin sbb dye ta ske aq b'ckp bkn2 n pkir bkn2....Btpe cdeyh aq saat 2 , hnye allah yg twu....Ble aq sndrian , msty tbyng diri dye , cepat jerk air mate aq neyh mngalir....Aq mmg cpt sgt menitiskn air mate....Nmpk jerk luaran mcm gns....huhuu......Aq ade wat pmintaan sblm aq ta ggu dye lgyh....Aq na jmpe dye , aq mnx bju dye yg blm dye bsuh....Mle2 dye mmg mcm tana kc , akhrnye dye kc gark kat aq....mse dye kc bju at aq 2 , aq mmg ta leyh pndng mke dye....Ble aq b'ckp ngn dye aq tgk laen....Mate aq mula nmpk b'kace....Mmg ta leyh thn air mate neyh , jtoh bderai dpn dye....Mmg malu,tp na wat cm mne....Bkn leyh pkse air mate neyh kuar sndri , dye mengalir dgn sendri....Sayu nye aty ku saat 2 , terasa sebak dadaku....Aq ta mcm org laen , sblm neyh dye tmpt aq mgadu nasib n b'kasih syg....Siyez aq ta prnh rpt ngn ccpe dlm fmly aq , hnye ngn mak jerk kkdng tmpt b'sembng , mmg dr kecik lgyh aq mcm neyh....Dye muncul dlm idop aq , aq bwu rse dri d'hargai & d'syngi....Tp dye wat cm neyh at aq , hncur bkecai aty aq , dye lpskn aq....Aq t'lalu syg n cntkn dye....Aq twu kkdng uh semua bpunca dr aq....Kkdng aq t'talu jelez cmpai dye na rpt ngn ccpe pown aq jelez....Kkdng dye lbh utamakn dyeorg dr aq , aq cdeyh sgt....Aq neyh cpe wat dye an....Aq tgk org laen ta pown wat psngn dyeowg cm 2....hmmmm......cdeyh sgt....Tapela , aq kne phm aq bkn sepenohnye milik dye saat 2....biar jerk aq pendam n tewoz pndam....aq hnye prlukn ksh syg jerk dr dyew n na dye s'lalu ade dsmpng aq , aq ta prnh mnx pew2 dr dye....Tp mgkin dye ta phm pew yg aq na kn.....Stiap mlm , ble aq tdo msty aq plok bju dye dlu....ble aq ta bleyh na lelapkan mata , aq ltk bju dye kt dada aq , tewoz tpjm mate aq dgn sndri nye....bju 2 , wat aq lpskn krnduan pd dye....Aq ta lgyh cntct dyew , bg msg pown ta , lme gark laa pas aq jumpa dye 2 n aq bg msg at dye yg aq ta kn kcu dye lgyh....Aq cuba , tp ya Allah....Wndu pada nya ta leyh na sembunyi , ta bleyh kalo ta kc msg wlau sehari....Aq cuba , cuba sebuk kn dri aq dgn bnde laen....Tp pelan2 bleyh biasekn dri , sbnrnye dlm hati Allah yg twu cm mne perasaan aq saat 2....tpu la kalo aq dpt lpekn dye kn....Mseh eggt , x kn dpt na lpe dye....Dye yg ptama muncul dlm hidup aq n wat aq bahgia kat atz dunia neyh...aq ta boleyh tnpa dye d'cc aq....Satu ary , ttbe dye bg msg at aq....Mgkin dye wndu aq....Mle2 aq mmg wt ta twu....tp wse kcian lark....tmbh2 aq pown wndu dye sgt....Kteorng msg la cmpai skunk....Tp aq ta twu , hbng kteorg neyh cm mne....sbgi psgn ke+teman tp mesra kea+kwn kea ape pown ta twu la....tp aq ttp aggp dye mcm dlu....ta twu la dye aggp aq cm mne....biar laaa mse n waktu yg mnentukn....Aq ade tnye dye , dye aggp aq cm mne , dye ckp ''lbh dr sgle nye n dye akn ttp stia ngn aq''....Ntah laa......Aq hrp kte2 dye uh bkn skdr hnye dr mlot jerk....hmmmm............
*kate2 kt bawah untk dye*
~KaLau dye bce neyh,owg na dye twu..owg syg dye lbh dr nyawa owg sndwi..
~owg t'lalu cntekn dye,ta kn ade ccpe yg bleyh gnty tmpt dye dlm aty owg..
~owg akn cntekn dye n sygkn dye cmpai akhr hyt owg..
~kalau satu ary dye darh ade pgnty owg,owg t'pakse akur n trme..owg tumpang bhgia dr jaoh, n sllu doakn kbhgiaan dye walau ngn cpe pown dye bsme..
~eggt pesan owg pde dye slme neyh..
~cnte owg at dye,cnte maty..
~tlg jge dri dye tok owg kalo owg ta derk lgyh at dunia neyh yerk..
~owg doakn dye bjye satu ary nnty & owg doakn dyew bhgia dgn org yg dye syg n cinte satu ary nnty ble ta bsme owg lgyh....
*ilyinyimysm*
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